Sunday, December 12, 2010

Trying Times

Welcome to my new blog.........I hope that you will enjoy reading my posts and will diligently try keep it updated weekly, of course depending on how my days go.  This blog will take you on a journey through a child, a life, a family, good times, love, cancer and trying to live after you lose what is the most important thing in the world.  All my post will not be sad ones, but you may cry anyways.  The saddest part of our lives have just been the last 6 months but prior to that Jessi had a great life.  I want to share alot of the past and Jessi's abundant life, part of the present and trying to get through each day, and some of the future.  I say some of the future because as I well no  "Boast not thyself of tomorrow; for though knowest not what a day may bring forth" Proverbs 27:1.

I want everyone that reads this to know how thankful we are to everyone through the trial that was set before us on June 26, 2010.
There are so many and I am hesitant to list every single name as I might unintentionally miss someone.  The outpouring of love and support from near and far has been truly overwhelming.
Jessi had the most beautiful service.......was in awe at the turnout........If she could have planned it herself it would have been exactly what she would have asked for.  And the interesting thing is that the service was not really planned out.....It kinda just happened......That was so Jessi.......whenever you where with her things kinda just happened for us, our whole life with her we never really "Planned" anything.  We kinda just did it.
As a matter of fact,  we never planned for her to not make it through this horrible thing called cancer.  That just wasn't an option.  Part of me is glad i didn't spend valuable time worrying about something we could not predict.  Instead, the focus was on getting better, doing things together, enjoying each other.
Jessi's life consisted of 14 years and 47 days.......I'm thankful those years where used wisely.  Although I don't encourage missing school, I am so glad and thankful for the many times we did pull her out of school to do things that she actually learned more about that if she had sat in the classroom.  I remember thinking the other day how many times we got lectured about her missing school but I look back now and think I am so glad we did it any ways.  Does it really matter now that she hit the limit on days absent in one year? Not really.  She still had managed to have all A's.
I guess what I'm saying is live your life with no regrets and if your heart tells you to do something then just do it as long as it doesnt adversly effect someone else in a negative manner.

Jessi's life ended way too early, was so unfinished and incomplete.  There is much in life that will never be experienced.
But, Jess's life was a life that was lived. She lived fully but briefly. It was short but beautiful.

"We cannot, after all, judge a biography by its length, by the number of pages in it; we must judge by the richness of the contents........Sometimes the 'unfinisheds' are among the most beautiful symphonies"  Viktor Frankel.


  1. I just viewed the video of Beads of Courage. Very moving. Someday I will be honored to her of Jessi's journey. XOXO

  2. Looking forward to reading more on your journey...

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  4. <3 I just learned abou the Beads of Courage idea and I remember seeing them at Jessi's funeral. Wish I'd payed better attention.

    The funeral was beautiful and so touching. I'll always remember Jessi and miss her. <3

  5. This is wonderful, can't wait to learn more of all the blessings. Love you Kathy

  6. Kathi I cant wait to learn more about sweet Jessi. I am so thankful to have met you, Bud and Jessi. Lily loved hanging out with her when she could.
    I will follow your blog faithfully .....Many hugs and prayers

  7. What an incredible way to help all understand how awesome Jessi was and to see what living really means. She had such a zest for life and every moment was filled with an expression of this zeal. There is so much that can be learned by her and through your journey we will all partake of a life taken from us too soon. I look forward to reading more. You are so loved.

  8. dear sweet sister
    u are a inspiration to me !!!!! love yall

  9. I think this is a wonderful idea Kathi. We are thinking of you and Bud. Love you guys.

  10. Kathi... Wish that I could of known Jessi and your family better while she was still here, but I am looking so forward to learning about her through your blog. Still continuingly praying for you and loving you!

  11. I'm so glad you started a blog! Writing and continuous prayers are going to be what helps us get through our lives without Jessi and Kayla. Can't wait to read more....
    Amber Chandler

  12. Kathi,

    This is just beautiful. Healing comes in different ways for everyone, and Jessi's life in itself has touched so many people. Our thoughts and prayers are with you, and I look forward to the blogs from you here, they inspire me so much.

    With Much love,
    Amy Breedlove